You Let Me Down

We all tried so hard, to raise you up.
To give you strength, when you could not stand.
We struggled to be your rock, when you tried so hard to push us down.
We triumphed when you did. Celebrated even the small accomplishments.
We thought you really meant it, that you would really change.

But now we find that you betrayed us.
That our efforts were all for not
You drained us dry of all we had, and said it wasn't enough.
You threw away what we so suffered to give you,
like it didn't even matter.

I hope someday you truly realise, how much you broke our hearts
That giving up has hurt us, in a way you do not yet understand.

I hope someday you realise just what we sacrificed for you,
and see with clearer eyes, the devastation you have left behind.

Dedication: To my Sister, I hope you find the strength to overcome your demons

I Dream of the Sea...

My Zodiac sign is Pisces and I think it is strong this week. The theme in my thoughts seems to be the ocean, though I only just realised it today. My new avatar is a Penguin, both my recent blog posts had a theme of "tides", and the Mandala I just finished I did in all blues and greens. I also dreamed of tropical fish last night. They were swimming around my bedroom. I wonder what a dream interpretation would make of that.

To channel my ocean themed, I created a Etsy Treasury of Ocean related works of art. And here it is:

http://www.etsy.com/treasury/4d2c845d802b6d91675902b6/i-dream-of-the-sea?index=0


Leave a comment and let me know what you think.

Time and Tide wait for No One

This shoulder injury has been soooo frustrating! I have been at home bored out of my gourd because I can't do the things I normally do. Even shampooing my hair is painful! They say "Time and Tide wait for no one, but I feel like I am waiting for it to catch up with me! Knitting and Crocheting, which normally give me so much joy, no only give me pain. The doctors says "time will tell" (Ugh!!!!) but there is a good possibility I may not be able to Knit again or even go back to my regular job :-(
I am trying so hard to be positive and believe this is for the best. I feel so....... restricted, limited.... so USELESS. I admit I am stubborn and will rarely admit I can't do something, so my ego has taken some bruising. I have had to learn that "pain" doesn't mean "weakness" and that bullying through that pain doesn't mean your strong.... or smart.
Where will I go now that my path has been altered? I have some new ideas for projects now that I am healed enough to have a normal routine. Been sussing them out on paper and hope to bring them to life soon. Guess time will tell... I just hate waiting.

In this time of change the lines of a Robert Frost poem spring to my mind:

The Road Not Taken

........two roads diverged in a wood, and I

I took the road less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference

Maybe the road I didn't plan to take will actually be the better journey.

The Tides

Turning tide and blowing wind, brings ever change ashore.

To twirl and sway, but never stay, to see what change abounds

But in their haste to dance away,they always leave a gift.

Maybe a leaf, seed or polished shell is the prize that's left to ponder.

So wealthy is the wind and sea to send such riches forth

we mustn't refuse so mighty a gift, as we, its humble children.

But to set forth with our little gifts and make our world so bright,

because isn't it our human cause to leave it better then we found it?