Walking The Moss Path

These are photos I took of a walk in the woods with my mom and son. There are all these paths through the woods and fields behind my moms house.

It is a very enchanting place. I felt like if I had stayed still and quiet long enough, one of the woodland fairy folk might be seen, making their way through this beautiful place. I could have stayed forever, enjoying its beauty.

It reminded me of a place from my childhood home. Where my sisters and I would spend out hot summer days. Deep in the woods by the river bank we would play day in and day out. Building "hideouts" from the natural materials we found and swimming, floating and "fishing" in the river.

I long for those simple days, without a care in the world.


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I Want........

I want to shine.
like the brightest star or the warmest sun.
I want to stand in the spotlight for all to see, to be appreciated.

but I am afraid.
Afraid of being seen. Watched. All those eyes watching. Laughing. Analyzing. Picking apart my very soul.

Seeing my "flaws" in all of their raw glory. Would you still like me then? Would I be what you wanted to see me as?

Would I be what I wanted the world to see?

I want you to see me. Me in the corner who so desperately wants to stand on that stage and shine.

I want to feel real. Like I am making a difference, that what I am doing is not a pipe dream.

I want to take that leap, but I cannot see the bottom.
Who would I hurt if I never hit the bottom?

I want so much to shine

But I am afraid.